Early in each homosexual’s life there come a time where she/he finds out about themselves. Some say that they knew all along and they were not surprised, it came all naturally. It is the time to experiment things, do weird stuff with the neighbor’s kids next door or the cousins… At an early age most of us have the cousin cousin experience, in which it is either a girl girl , boy boy or boy girl experience. But in our case it is the GG or BB experience.
Some of us had such BB-GG experiences with our cousins, but our cousins turned out later on to be straight. But this is not the point, the point is that we realize what we want, or what our body wants from that early age and we start dreaming and thinking of men or girls. Later on when puberty knocks our doors we start having all that pleasure of self-sex.
Now it is a dangerous time when there is no one there to enlighten you about the sexual life, whether a girl or a boy. And so they enlighten us of course as if our sexual orientation is just as theirs straight. So there is another part about the sexual experiences hiding waiting for us to humiliate ourselves and unleash it.
Who does have a perfect first sexual experience? Few? Too many? At least I don’t. And some of my friends around don’t. You can not have a hundred percent sexual experience from the first time.
Unfortunately in our Lebanese gay community we have all sorts of dangers that threaten gay youngsters. From pedophilia to gay drug dealers and rapists, therefore the parents of the teenager should sense his/her sexual orientation and accept it and know how to warn him/her about the dangers that await him.
It is true that they might not be able to know about these dangers because they are not IN the community. Therefore there is HELEM at Spears Street, to answer all there concerns.
But again we hit a wall of disappointment, majority of parents never accept the fact that their child is gay, but if they did now they know where to go.
First sexual experience with a partner can either break you into pieces or build the image and complete the first phases of the puzzle. It is always about the first impression, the first experience, and it also depends on the person’s attitude and personality towards the issue.
We all pass through the first experience, we all pass through the rebounds of the first experience and we all get upset and hate ourselves from the first sexual experience. But we learn, and we improve, and this is what matters.
