Fitting In

We should always face facts. Every day, and every hour and even every moment in our lives, we should be able to face the "facts" whether we like it or not.
But in order to do that, we should be able to "see" and understand the situation we are put in.

For most of gay people in Lebanon their lives are nothing but a discrete scary situation. Most of these people try to hide their sexuality in public places, just because they know they are going to be rejected, so they "fake it".

What do they fake? They fake their attitudes, they fake their behaviors, and they even fake their body movements. But at the same time, they seek acceptance from the community.

I am not saying let's go act "bitchy" and give them the crazy attitude, and by that we would really be seeking acceptance, "no" but why don't you just act normal and natural?

But fact is, in order to fit in the Lebanese community, you must not be different. They oblige you to transform yourself into one of them otherwise you will not be accepted as one of them. They force you indirectly to change yourself at least while you're with them to be alike and then they would love you and accept you and even fight for you.

It is explicable now why most gay people tend to change their attitudes and behaviors while they are in straight places, or between straight people, but one might say:"So what if the community found out that you're gay, and rejected you?!"

Well, yes so what if they found out and rejected them? It may seem simple, but unfortunately it is not. The problem is that they will not only reject you and kick you, they will discriminate you from others, they will use violence against you, they will break you in any means possible, just because their religion told them to do so, and their parental and environmental social backgrounds told them to do so.

If you are not one of them, then you won't ever fit in, sad but true.